So much has happened and this update will be disjointed….
Loss….we are still reeling from our losses…I know I am, some that took me by surprise…or rather the reactions to said losses shook me up. Friend, aunt, grandmother, father….we are still assimilating and will be for a good while, you think you close a chapter and finish that book…only to find a sequel to get you going again. I hate that my kids have to go through these upheavals…nothing has broken me in so long than not being able to comfort my son over such a devastating loss. I’m used to loss, it is one of the reasons I don’t form attachments….any who….yeah….that currently is the big one sucking big fat purple monkey balls….puts trivial shit into perspective…like some fucktard asshat getting all territorial about public places I should be thinking of venturing in….I could kick my ass for replying to a juvenile email regarding previously stated nonsense. (Yes, a good bitching and venting seems to be in order)
Another school year is also coming to an end, with that…another son leaving, but we will have a new face taking his place….changes, so many changes….soon it will be time to sell and move on….actually I’m still selling, by the time the last one leaves I want all my furniture gone, I don’t yet know where I am going but I do know I don’t need all the crap I have accumulated.
As I’m typing away I also find that while in my head I still have a lot to say, I have also lost my desire to write…..this may be the end….
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What? Yeah…..some trends that have been growing exponentially….on Facebook most days I feel like I don’t know the place anymore….I used to enjoy my drop-ins and contributions to make someone smile or think….nowI feel like I accidentally stumbled back in time and I’m in church….the Church of Facebook….where there are all sorts of condemnations…..or back when I’d drop in at the town’s local pancake and coffee shop and the old timers would get into heated discussions over politics….***SIGH**** I do miss the old Facebook….I know some of the going ons are trends, the pet posting, the trout pout pics, etc, etc….anywho I’ll stop bitching about that….
Day off from job 1, so much to do and waiting on motivation, savoring my coffee…still doing laundry, have ironing to do, clothes to put away,a vacuum to run, a list of things I want to put together and photograph and hopefully sell, if not off to freecycle. I also have to try to finish my haircut….I can get one side just right or close enough to where it does what I want to, but I get challenged with the other side, I’ll eventually get it to where I’m okay with it or where I give up and let it grow out again.
My cup is almost dry…so I’ll be wrapping things up, shower, haircut, ironing station setup, may watch a movie while I do that….then I’m hoping for a nap before I go to job 2…..I want to enter a drawing for maid service for a year….and win….where do I sign up????
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I remember her walking in and I knew something was not right. I didn’t know her aside from brief interactions at the counter or as I made rounds….but I was seeing a person that was in shock.
I asked if she was ok, she broke down for a split second and disclosed that she had just been diagnosed with cancer.
The next day she came in after her first treatment.
Somewhere along the way I just felt I needed to be there for her, she hasn’t disclosed the details and I haven’t probed….but I have found a new friend and I’ll do what I can to be there for her.
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to be continued….
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I shouldn’t be bitching….but hey I’m being human….and I know nothing I’m going through can begin to compare to the devastation left in the wake of hurricane Sandy….
So I have been working 7 days a week…running on fumes, just trying to get ahead…ain’t gonna happen anytime soon. I was finally able to get the apartment rented out after it being used for storage for a while….I had no reported problems from the previous tenant, but now I’m inundated with a mountain of repairs that will need to be addressed. SIGH**** What next? Will I need a third job just to keep afloat…I don’t know….I’m trying to not stress it, but those are the joys of being a single parent and a homeowner….and to add to that I have the added responsibility of taking care of property that doesn’t belong to me but was left in my care….some days I wish I was not MS. Responsibility….as much as I have being accused of being irresponsible…SIGH****
Yes this is a pity party, party of one, but still a party….the only way I party nowadays.
Tomorrow is my Friday from job one….YAY! I’ll be tackling laundry and housecleaning….and trying to rest in between….I’m amazed at how I was able to hold up while big drama was playing havoc in my world….it was a rotation of work and being gone to avoid it, now I’m embracing the not having to be gone part, but I still can’t seem to catch up on much-needed rest.
Somehow I still haven’t found the time or energy to reconnect with my much neglected friends….I haven’t forgotten any of them, in fact I think about them and the trials they are facing, health issues financial and otherwise…yeah I know the world does not revolve around me…..
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It’s been a little over 2 months since I last popped on here to deliver some dribble. This move has been a bitch. More to come….but yeah, hoping things/life soon get to a new normal.
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It’s always something, all this fuckery….something…always something.
Financial setbacks….health setbacks, job, life in general….but I guess if it wasn’t for something we wouldn’t have much of a life. Life is a bitch….not for all…some people actually enjoy this shit…life….me personally….I’m tired of it….day in, day out….all the same fuckery…I don’t even wait for shit to happen, waking up…it’s a given…shit will find me.
Tomorrow is the start of tax-free weekend…I am anticipating all kinds of zombie like creatures going nuts over a no tax shopping frenzy….I may soak in Calgon in preparation…..
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