Posts Tagged ‘therapy’


Therapy for me involves pain, self-inflicted mind you…I took to the back yard and took advantage of the cool morning and wet ground to work on getting some of those stickers and weeds out. I tend to become enthralled with the task at hand, stupidly I was in flip-flops, a couple of times I almost amputated a foot…at the very least a few toes…but I persevered. I stopped a few times, I had some help in the form of a three-year old ready to wield her garden tools…or mine….more than likely the ground will be dry and hard tomorrow so it’s good that I did as much as I did…

Therapy part 2….the sun…my vitamin D levels were quite low at my last check up…I was prescribed a once a week high dose of the D in a green gel cap that is an ordeal to down…I don’t intend to refill the prescription…I will spend more time outside getting it from the source along with cancer of the epidermis.

The Therapy part 3….the quiet…the best part of my self-imposed therapy. I am by nature an introvert…I fake the extrovert almost to perfection…but indulging in quiet time is a feel good must…

Therapy part 4…getting in the zone…the zen zone…I have had a couple of anxiety attacks as of late…annoying more than anything….I have so much going on and I am not one to share…a retraction to this statement….I do share a big portion of me with a few chosen trusted individuals, but the things I have to fix on my own…well that I keep to myself…I don’t see the point in unloading on anyone…in the end when I do find resolution it makes everything feel silly and trivial….

Therapy part 5…getting back to writing….writing has always been therapeutic for me…it’s a way to lay bare some of my burdens without creating a burden for any poor well-meaning friend that might want to offer an ear…I am good at bending ears from time to time…but for now I have an overwhelming need to just shut the fuck up.


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AKA Austin, TX

I left around noon on Sunday, checked in and got a bit of rest…I had made arrangements to meet up with an old friend from high school. She isn’t really old, she is younger than me but we met my senior year in high school and became fast friends. We hadn’t seen each other since then but have been keeping in touch via Facebook and MySpace.

It was so good to see her and we picked up like there had not been this great span of time since we last saw each other. (Over two decades) She brought a friend along and I hit it off with her and know she will be a friend. We hope to meet up in San Antonio for all things girl…like shopping. We went to a restaurant where we ordered 3 appetizers and drinks…our table had way more food than we could possibly eat, but we tried. Time went by and next thing they were closing, so we went over to a different restaurant just down the street and ate more chips and salsa along with another round of drinks.  Sadly we had to call it a night but we will continue to keep in touch.

They dropped me off and I went to my room, took a shower and tried going to sleep…sleep was alluding me, so I messed around online for a bit, then gave that up and tried reading myself to sleep…again sleep is not my friend…I say sleep is an asshole.

I turned the light out, threw my pillow over my head and tried really hard to at least snooze, I dozed off for a bit, and felt refreshed enough to get up, get dressed, pack my bag, check out, head out, refuel, stop for coffee and a light breakfast, then head to my doctor’s office. I got there about 15 minutes early and was actually called right on time.

New x-rays were taken, nothing broken, that is good news for my overdue 6 month check up….yay for that, that was my biggest fear. But bone is not being laid over the hardware as fast as we would like, thus causing my recovery to go slower than we would like. I did get a referral for aquatic therapy, now I need to find a place to go to that will accept my insurance….let’s also hope this is affordable to me, as I will still have  a copay and at 2-3 times a week it might be out of my financial abilities. Guess I can starve us some more…I don’t want fat kids or my own ass to get fatter.


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56 things~

The news today wasn’t good….but I guess I have made a decision….

…and this time I will be prepared…..I found this list of things to do while recovering from surgery….some sound fun…

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  1. Download music (legally) from the Internet; fill up your ipod from itunes
  2. Randomly explore the internet; see what the rest of the world is searching for using Google Trends
  3. Play games that can be played by yourself. There’s an amazing variety of games now available – here’s a great list. Develops thinking skills, pattern recognition, etc.
  4. Read (or listen to) the classics: To Kill a Mocking Bird, A Catcher in the Rye, The Grapes of Wrath, The Old Man and the Sea , The Great Gatsby, The Call of the Wild, War and Peace. These books are almost always available from your library, and often on sale at the large book stores.
  5. Listen to books on CD. Sometimes it’s easier to listen to a book than to read, very relaxing.
  6. Have your kids read to you
  7. Play classic board games with your kids – Monopoly, Scrabble…
  8. Rent a season of a TV series that you had always wanted to see. Entourage is hilarious. Or rent an old series, like Cheers or The Dick Van Dyke Show.
  9. Download books from, e.g. from www.netlibrary.com
  10. Do crossword puzzles or Sudoko puzzles or print up some kakuro, which are number versions of crossword puzzles
  11. Play the guitar (or learn to), or ask someone to play an instrument or sing for you.
  12. Watch old movies. This is great if you are feeling fuzzy from the pain medications – the classic old movies are slow-moving, so it’s easy to follow the plot
  13. On a budget? Rent movies from the library instead of from the video store – it’s usually a fraction of the price and you can keep the movie for a week.
  14. Enjoy Xbox or Nintendo, Gameboy, Sony PSP, or any handheld electronic games
  15. Some like the handheld game of Simon – it’s not too difficult, so good if the pain medications are affecting your concentration
  16. Read the entire Harry Potter series (no these books are not just for kids, the stories and characters are riveting!)
  17. If you prefer, read the original magical book series, The Narnia Chronicles by C.S. Lewis
  18. For the women – give yourself a manicure, a facial, look through magazines to find a new hair style you’d like to try
  19. Read the entire New York Times – that will take at least a half a day!
  20. Go sit out on your deck or porch for awhile each day and get some fresh air
  21. Get free therapy online and make friends with other people who are in similar situations on the Spine-health.com Discussion Forum: “…finding this site and spending time here was a great help during recuperation – both in regard to having something to do but also for learning and understanding about our surgeries and recovery, and also being able to help and assist others here – that’s why I am still active here 7 months after surgery.”
  22. Start a Carepage – an online diary that allows you to chronicle your recovery and automatically notifies your network of friends and family each time you update it.
  23. E-mail a loved one who is having difficulty empathizing with your condition and invite him or her to view the Message Board so they can see what you and others in your condition have to go through
  24. Talk with others real time who are laid up in similar situations in an online Chat Room
  25. Read and comment on blogs that deal with recovery from surgery; or start your own blog!
  26. Connect with an old friend who you’ve lost touch with. Try sending him or her a card or letter via old fashioned mail.
  27. Learn to meditate and practice practice practice. Meditation is great for reducing stress and producing an overall feeling of calm and well being, all of which contributes to healing.
  28. Scrapbooking and putting all those old pictures in an album. Use … to create online photo albums of all your digital prints
  29. Plan ahead for your next vacation – research and plan it online.
  30. Become on expert on a specific subject – rent documentaries, read books, and use Google Scholar to do free online research on a certain subject. Ancient Greece? Bird watching? History of golf? Research and learn all about whatever interests you.
  31. Sort out pile of mail, bills, catalogues etc., that has been piling up on kitchen counter since before your surgery.
  32. Put your financials online with Quickbooks or a similar financial management program.
  33. Make some gifts the old fashioned way – knit or crochet a baby blanket for someone who’s expecting a baby soon, needlepoint something to decorate the baby’s nursery, or make advance holiday gifts.
  34. Learn the almost-lost art of lace making
  35. Learn to write left handed (or right handed, if you’re a lefty) to exercise a new part of your brain
  36. Inventory all the stuff you want to get rid of around the house and garage, and sell it on E-Bay
  37. Get started on that novel you’ve always wanted to write
  38. Make a Honey-do (or handyman) list for all those odd jobs that need to get done around the house
  39. Help build the online encyclopedia Wikipedia by editing or starting any topic where you have expertise
  40. Learn origami and create beautiful origami gift boxes or figures
  41. Learn calligraphy and make your handwritten notes gorgeous! This is especially valuable if you have horrible handwriting like mine…
  42. Create list of recipes that are easy to prepare that you can make once you’re up and around but still recovering. Here’s a list of spine-friendly recipes
  43. Every day write a short thank you (or love note) to the person who is caring for you and put it in the same place for them to find each day.
  44. Write thank you notes to everyone in the hospital who was helpful to you
  45. Pray in your own way.
  46. E-mail thank you notes to all the websites you found especially helpful (hint, hint!) … makes all the hard work worth it J
  47. Read online verses from the bible about healing and related topics
  48. Anytime you reach out to help someone else in need, you will feel better. Less lonely. Less depressed. Volunteer with an organization that allows you to call and talk to people who are lonely (such as people in nursing homes or people confined to their house).
  49. If you don’t yet have a cause that you’re passionate about, research one online (start here) and make a plan to start donating your time and energy to something you care about once you can get around
  50. Be an excellent host or hostess – send out invitations to your friends and family, schedule visits, greet your visitors enthusiastically even when you’re in pain, and encourage them to talk about themselves and their lives. It will go a long way to help take your mind off your situation, and will make it a pleasant visit all around.
  51. If you can’t walk much yet, have someone drive you to Wal-Mart or Target and ride one of the rascal scooters.
  52. Just walk walk walk. Try to gradually work up to 10,000 steps a day
  53. Wear a pedometer to encourage you to walk whenever possible
  54. Get comfortable shoes for walking that are easy to get on and off. Crocs are a favorite – they’re lightweight, slip on so you don’t have to bend over to get them on or off, and have some traction to help avoid slipping.
  55. Walk on a treadmill and set a progressive goal (e.g. go for 2 minutes longer each day) that is OK’d by your doctor. Chart your progress each day so you have a visual confirmation of how far you’ve come!
  56. Sign up for a water therapy – it’s very gentle on your back, as the water supports you while you exercise and prevents any jarring motion.

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Sometimes I take a step back from my life and think, “I have no idea what the hell I’m doing.”….but I’m going to keep doing it….maybe I’ll figure something out….sometimes I look at my kids and think, “I have no idea how to be a mother.”…but I’m going to keep doing what I’m doing….maybe I’ll figure it out….or sometimes I think…”How bad have I screwed them up already?”…but I’m going to keep doing what I’m doing….maybe I’ll figure it out….and once in a while I think…”I am (or they are) going to need years of intensive therapy to undo the damage.”….Then I just keep winging it…seems to be what has worked out so far….ha!!! there’s the answer….maybe that is the answer to everything…just keep doing it…’cept for the stupid stuff…no need to keep doing that over and over again…my slow learning ass has done that…but I think it was more so that I thought there was no possible way that the outcome on the second go round could possibly be the same as the outcome of the first go round….yep…otherwise known as having blinders on….no not me….everything I do is perfect contrary to whatever nonsense I may have said previously….I don’t do mistakes…ha!!! Yeah I was being funnee….cause I have got to laugh at myself, you know you are laughing at me, well I am laughing with you at me at my expense…..ok, you can stop laughing at me now, if you are still laughing then let me tell you that my feelings are hurt….so stop it….five seconds of it is sufficient, more than five and you are just a big meanie….sometimes I think life is a bowl of cherries, but to get to the good stuff with a cherry inevitably you must spit out a pit, the more cherries you take in the more pits you must spit out….I find that I have an awesome talent when it comes to spitting out the pits…I mean I can spit them across a room in a straight line or if I tilt my head back just so I can spit them in an awe inspiring arc that could appear to be traveling in slow motion as it reaches its destination…..but it happens real quick and it is a very unladylike activity so I reserve my talent for when I know I am going to be unobserved….sometimes I think that I should join a circus and display my untapped talents of clowning around….sometimes I think I sound marvelous when I sing…but if I sound as bad as I’ve heard my recorded voice then I know I would be tomatoed off a stage….sometimes I am oblivious to the slight fact that I am a  nerd goddess…sometimes I kill me with my unintended attempt at humor…..sometimes I want to go back to bed, like right now, because last night I was fighting sleep …then I was suddenly wide awake and restless and all I could do was toss and turn trying to get comfortable and get back to sleep ….so I made myself lay still on my back….but that didn’t work….so I ended up flipping through channels not really watching anything at least I can’t recall what I saw on the screen…..I was finally able to feel like I might could sleep….last time I finally looked at the clock it was 4am….now I look like my bags (under eye bags that is) are packed and I am ready to go….so now I go and there you go….my mindless unamusing offerings of morning dribble offered at a discounted rate of a cup of hot java…2 sugars and 2 creams…..

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