I need change, sure quarters for my water jug refills, four quarters = 5 gallons, but no I’m not talking about the kind of change that jingles in my bottomless purse. Well actually these days there isn’t any change to be found anywhere, yes I even looked under the sofa cushions. I’m talking CHANGE, you know the kind that makes you into someone else…well not that that kind of change is gonna pop out of me.
I’ve had people in my life who want me to change something. Change my job, change my friends, change my attitude. The only thing I ever change with any regularity is my mind, and socks…used to be I’d change my hair color on a whim and my wheels.
Change takes exactly that, change. Everything seems to have a price. Well let me back track there…some of the best things in life are free. Like unconditional love. I know that, hearing from old friends who call out of the blue is a perfectly free reminder. Also a reminder that I suck at calling friends to let them know what they mean to me. I need to do better.
It is about 3AM and I have a house full of boys, my three and extra boy. Everyone is up, me I’m trying to read and write myself into oblivion but it doesn’t appear that I will have any success in that. I’ve been reading lots of random stuff online, I also have a book I pick up and page through, haven’t gotten fully engaged in it yet. I’m also hungry. I baked chicken earlier, lots of chicken, I had a couple of pieces with a side of veggies and a side of mac and cheese. I also had a bowl of cherries and some oranges.
Maybe I should start a load of laundry. Or take a cold shower. I’d say a movie but I’m TV’d out. Besides the boys are watching some random movies that I just don’t think I can dumb myself down enough to enjoy with them. I suffered through Lockdown, horrid plot, and the dialogue was ludicrous.
Got the boys out for pics at the park, but first we stopped in to check out our new library, it is quite impressive with 3 levels and an elevator. We didn’t go to the lower level and we weren’t in there long. But me thinks me will perhaps go and spend some quiet time out there in the near future. We drove around a bit scouting a location for some family photos and settled on a nearby park, it was completely redone and a nice improvement from when the boys were babies. I used to take them there and play with them, I miss that freedom and curse my old decrepit body.
Of course I am calling for a do-over on the pics, two boys didn’t want to smile, one boy had a stain on his shirt, one boy had his eyes closed and I didn’t like my hair. So we will try again.