What a night….whew…


So I drive up to work, park, all the while keeping an eye on the car up the street, that is just sitting there, engine running, lights on, in the middle of the street. I gather my gear, punch my code in, go in, see the car on camera slowly drive by my car, up the street…it makes a U-turn and pulls up behind me….try to pull up the camera that might help us see who is the vehicle, no luck, mouse is frozen…walk up to the door, take a look….still can’t see who is in the car…tinted windows….head back to the office…sit there looking at the monitor…nobody gets out, car is still running…we are held hostage….this is shift change….my coworker cannot safely leave and I cannot go on transport…time to call the popo….great response time…within 2 minutes we have popo’s surrounding the building, and the car…they approach the car, then come to the door….and let me know it’s someone that wants to come in…I get a name….and the bells go off….we’ve had some drama before with this one…..sigh…anywho…it took 45 minutes to get the situation under control, more popo’s, and a hapless cab driver….then time to go pick up the person waiting on me….so now I am out an hour and a half of time I could’ve been using to catch up on work….

Next…a visitor to my office…just wants to talk…and talk….and talk…about nothing cohesive…

Next….an accident….sigh….call ambulance…

Next…a trip to the ER….and then I’m back…

Next….the visitor again….NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Next….another transport….

Next….open the gate…and then the other gate is open and a glitch has it tripping….

Next…dispensing meds x’s 10…

Next….the visitor….and I’m been told what a great listener I’ve been…I wasn’t…

Next…got locked out…..

Next….wah….it just kept going and going….I need another day off….

Can’t catch a break lately….

Stolen car….with brand new car seat for the princess….buh-bye $125+…car recovered…TORCHED, sadly the thieving fucker was not torched in the vehicle…yeah I know it’s a little harsh…and actually a good thing the thieving fucker didn’t get injured or injure anyone else while he was having fun in the stolen car.

My truck is broken, not sure what is wrong with it….it’s not the battery…she needs attention…finances, weather and time permitting.

My car is acting sick, got filters and belts for it….still need to get them installed….finances, weather and time permitting.

Still have a hole on the side of the house where the beginnings of a plumbing job was started….still a work in progress…will get to it too…finances, weather and time permitting.

Roof leaking….will get to it too…finances, weather and time permitting.

Leak in laundry room….will get to it too…finances, weather and time permitting.

and the list goes on and on….all with the same old tired refrain…will get to it too…finances, weather and time permitting.

Through all this I have been getting help from friends….as far as the labor goes….that in turn allows me to pay it forward in kind. I’ve informally adopted an elderly gent and a kidlet. I just don’t have the physical stamina to do more than I already do…when I do overextend myself I feel like my entire Mexican family got their pointy fence jumping boots on and kicked the shit out of me, took a 5 minute break and then kicked me some more….


So many annoyances….

I(idiot…no not me…but yeah, sometimes I can be) Why don’t you believe?
R(me) Why do you?
I-I was raised Catholic
R-That’s all you got?
I-yes, I was raised in the church and that’s what my parents taught me.
R-Sounds like indoctrination
I-No, it was how I was raised
R-again, Sounds like indoctrination
R-yeah, that’s what I thought….you are basically telling me that you only believe because you were told to, taught to, take your pick, me, I just formed my own thoughts and opinions, and they may be wrong, but at least I’m formulating my own thoughts and not espousing someone else’s views that are just passed on generationally.
R-no bible thumping please, I had my fill from one idiot (or two) to last me a lifetime.


I have simple criteria….that means 3 basic things have to be met before I consider a date…
1. Must have a job
2. Must have transportaion (preferably your own)
3. Must not live with mommy

I’m not looking for a boyfriend (I’m too old for that) I don’t need, like or want a needy, insecure and clingy asshat. Don’t call me, then call me back 15 minutes later and tell me you’ve missed me. Then whine that I don’t like you or ever say I miss you. Hello…you need to give me time to miss you…so go away…stay away…be gone for a week…or two…or even three….I can’t stand a needy person.

Never ending home repairs…sigh…enough said…

and insomnia….I hate insomnia…gives me too much time to think about this shit that annoys me…but I have to keep it in because if I tell the asshats and idiots how I really feel they get butt hurt…I just can’t find it in me to give a shit sometimes….I know…breathe…and type…bitch or blow….now time to go make me some coffee and get ready for work. Happy Monday to me.asshat

I’m not immune to drama~

I hate drama…especially when I haven’t done or said anything to warrant it…I offered my unconditional support to someone, offered an ear, advice and gave of my time. Tried to stick up for this person, knowing said individual has had the sad misfortune of being raised by a sad excuse for a human.

What do I get in return for my efforts? I get shit on…that’s what I get….lol.

That’s all fine and good, I can take it…for a second or two…but I don’t have to. So said individual can fuck off….I’ve taken enough crap in my personal life that the notion of outside crap has left a bad taste in my mouth.

I can wish this person well, and I can at the same time give them a big fuck you goodbye.

I have no use for you~

Friday~ Part dos~

I didn’t make it to the laundry room, but I did make it to the shower…and out of the house. Not on my own….but with my cousin Debbie. We went and had lunch at Applebees, I had a small Oriental grilled chicken salad with a couple of sliders…the salad was good but I was not impressed with the sliders. I would have gone all out and ordered dessert but after the salad there wasn’t any room…imagine that, no room for cheesecake. After lunch we headed to the mall, went into a couple of stores…found a necklace and a watch…a purple watch no less.

Love~ how apropos~

After the mall we headed to WalMart where I picked up a few other items and by then I was feeling stiff and found it difficult to get back in the vehicle, but I managed….but by then I was ready to get home, pop a pill and crash. It was good to get out but I still have a long ways to go.

I am now lying in bed, wide awake, in pain and not finding a comfortable position. Crap is also swirling through my head, unnecessary crap. I should be living a drama free life but karma is a bitch…yeah I know…so am I.

Daily Activity Report~Friday 10.16.09

I’ve had my coffee, met the drama quota, took a shower, weighed myself (I’ve lost 5 pounds). This morning sickness cracker and water diet works wonders.

Quota exceeded
Quota exceeded

I’ve read my newspapers, a few blogs, emails and status updates.

Read, read, read...
Read, read, read...

Visited my social networking sites.

Been here...and there..and everywhere...
Been here...and there..and everywhere...

I’ll be ingesting a narcotic in a few and hope for blissful oblivion. I don’t want to be here today.

Zen~ gotta find you...
Zen~ gotta find you...

I will/may update my daily activities throughout the day. Doubtfully anything super exciting will happen. I may just provide you with a list of the mindless entertainment I watch throughout the day…then you can sit there and play armchair analyst and try to figure me out.

My panties are in a wad...in my drawer....
My panties are in a wad...in my drawer....

Mar Adentro~

Mar Adentro
Mar Adentro

I caught this movie on HBO a few days ago, it was midway into the movie and I sat there and watched a few minutes, despite the subtitles I was captivated by the storyline and went back to the guide and found the next airing of it, I set it to record. Yesterday I started to watch it and it is a beautiful film…I dislike subtitles as I find myself reading the subtitles and finding that for the most part they are off from the actual lines being uttered by the actors, I find that highly annoying. There was one character  José who was speaking a different language, not sure if it was French so in those instances the subtitles helped…anyhoo I thoroughly enjoyed the film, it was quite thought provoking and well acted. I know that if I was to ever take up a crusade I would support the end of life debate, I know it arises strong feelings for many individuals especially on a religious standpoint, but it is my personal opinion and belief that life without dignity is no way to live. I have newfound respect for the actor Javier Bardem, he was very charismatic in this role, very much like the man behind this true story.

Two of the most talented figures in contemporary Spanish cinema — actor Javier Bardem and director Alejandro Amenábar — collaborate for this powerful drama, based on a true story. Ramón Sampedro  was a fisherman and part-time poet who, at the age of 26, suffered an accident while diving that left him a bedridden quadriplegic. Now 54, Ramón must depend on his family to survive — his macho brother José (Celso Bugallo), José’s wife, Manuela (Mabel Rivera), and their son, Javi (Tamar Novas). While grateful to his family and friends for their help, Ramón was always an active person, and as the years wore on, he has come to see his life as frustrating and pointless and wishes to die with what remains of his dignity. José, however, is bitterly opposed to the notion of assisted suicide, and Spanish laws would implicate anyone who helped Ramón end his own life, which is something Ramón does not want to do. Through Gené (Carla Segura), a friend who works with a “Right to Die” organization, Ramón is introduced to Julia (Belen Rueda), a lawyer he hopes will help him persuade the courts to let him end his own life. Julia is dealing with her own mortality issues since being diagnosed with a degenerative disease, and Ramón hopes her condition will make her arguments more persuasive. As Ramón and Julia work together on his case and help to prepare a book of his poems for publication, Ramón finds himself falling in love with his attorney, who happens to be married, but while his infatuation gives Julia second thoughts about the case, Ramón remains convinced that the greatest gift to him would be an end to his life

My time away~

I’ve done lots of missing (my babies), lots of thinking (about this, that and the other) and a lot of writing (in the middle of the night when I should be sleeping). Some issues will remain unresolved, such is life after all…I’ve found myself pulling away from public writing, I’m hesitant to blog at the places I was blogging before. I’ve seen too many people attacked for their beliefs or opinions or at times for no other reason than the attacker is bored and craving drama. Politics and religion are truly hot topics, I shy away from them as much as possible, I prefer the stress free life I can have if I keep my opinions to myself. I know that my little voice will never have an impact in either of those areanas so no point in making myself the target of an attack. I am so ready to be with the ones I love and the ones that love me.

A peaceful morning view
A peaceful morning view

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