Tongue deeply entrenched in cheek…otherwise titled “I tongue myself”

Right or wrong…you’re wrong I’m right, end of argument!  Logic usually goes out the window when engaged in a battle with those less witless than I…..I find it hard to admit I’m wrong….I am never wrong…and I won’t admit it, not going to happen…so put it out of your head, no matter how compelling you may be or how wrong I may be…fair is not the name of the game….here’s my trick…take notes ya’ll….prove to yourself that you are right and make yourself believe you are right as well….there…that ought to do it……well almost….remember not to raise your voice…cause I will not even listen to you then…I may catch a word or two…but more than likely I’m thinking ice cream…specifically HEB’s Creamy Creations Butter Pecan ice cream….but hey if you just admit your  wrong from the get go then you win…hehe….and remember to always take all arguments with  massive grains of salt…(see iodide can too be your friend) and remember you can always win by letting me believe what I need to believe and vice versa…the world would be a much better place…..I think where you stumble is when you need to prove to yourself that you need to win no matter the contest….I’ll give you a win based and that if I see it oozing out of you….I remember for both of us because you won’t…but it is in our nature to protect what  we believe…I’m hungry…I’m happy and I’m feeling much better after popping some makethisflulikeshitgoaway stuff.

Oh and on to some other stuff…I’ve got some places I think y’all should stop by and visit. These are sites created by a fellow freecycler and reader….so check out her blogs and spread the word.  this one is knitting and just everyday things…  an online store… blog for Fibromyalgia…

I’ve added them to my blogroll, feel free to add to yours.

There will always be a LIE in believe an OVER in lover an END in Friends an US in trust an IF in life

There will always be a LIE in believe an OVER in lover an END in Friends an US in trust an IF in life…

Isn’t that just so true? And then how it all flows together….

Tomorrow I will be calling Spine Austin and setting up my appointment for my 6 month check up on my fourth surgery….today also marks the one year anniversary of my 3rd surgery….it’s also the anniversary of an other unmentionable now very questionable act….I should have already scheduled this visit…but I’ve been putting it off, I’m scared of what the x rays may uncover….I have a nagging feeling that things aren’t as healed as they should be…or worse that I may need another procedure…I don’t think I would be mentally prepared for that kind of news….there is no way to prepare for that and I’m afraid that I would be sent over the edge…yes I have been teetering on the edge…the edge of reason, the edge of sanity, the edge of madness….I just need a little push and I’d be over….

I’ve been on a reading spree, pretty much laying off the TV, not spending much time online either….so that has me all disconnected… goal is to get back to “normal” next week….whatever that really means anymore…oh and of all the books I’ve read in the past few days…Brenda Novak’s The Perfect Couple was the one that kept me on the edge….and also struck a chord…the description of how the husband sucked the wife into a life of depravity by being a controlling asshole was spot on….I can relate to the wife, how she got to where she was…not that I think I could have ever gone to the dark places she went to in the name of love….but the disease to please, the doing anything/everything to keep her husband happy and in love with her, pretty sad…too many times I had well-meaning people tell me to go along with something that was so against my nature to keep a man with me….so not worth it…for me it just isn’t a way to live…if a person cannot accept another persons differences then it is time to move on…using manipulation, coercion, threats or violence isn’t a healthy path to a long-lasting loving healthy relationship…and as my grandma used to say…”It is better to be alone than in bad company”

so anyway….not sure where this rambling nonsense was supposed to go…so just file under randomness….

I’ll take suspended disbelief for $200

I'd like you to believe I am perfect~

I’ll tell you what you want to hear if you promise to believe everything I tell you, it’s that simple.

Sometimes in life we employ that tactic or sometimes others try to get us to see that.

I’ve heard it put to me in countless ways. If you ask, you shall receive, if you believe, the possibilities are endless. Just live life, be good, do good, and after…in the next life…promises untold will unfold…right before your eyes.

I’ve been a sucker for this ploy…after all I’ve been married and divorced more times than I care to count…or share…yes, embarrassingly so.

To play the marriage game, I had to accept that the vows meant something, and of course they did, they just meant different things to two very different people. My walks down the aisle were a bad case of suspended disbelief.

I believed there was going to be a happily ever after….but as a ploy it works well, in reality it played out just how it was meant to play out.

In other areas of my life I was told if I believed that there was something, something I couldn’t see, something I couldn’t hear, or touch…well that something would be the answer to all I had been asking…

I live in a state of disbelief.

But I am on a quest to learn…on a path of Progressive Education, a student of life and right now my grades aren’t the best…yes I am in the remedial class.

It’s everything you see and nothing I know

I’m not fooled by you…I’m not fooled by the face you wear. You wear a thousand masks, masks that you are afraid to take off and none of them are you. Pretending is an art that’s second nature with you, but don’t be fooled. You give the impression that you are secure, that all is sunny and perky with you, within as well as without, that confidence is your name and coolness your game; that the waters are calm and you are in control, and that you need no one…don’t believe everything you see.

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