Can’t catch a break lately….

Stolen car….with brand new car seat for the princess….buh-bye $125+…car recovered…TORCHED, sadly the thieving fucker was not torched in the vehicle…yeah I know it’s a little harsh…and actually a good thing the thieving fucker didn’t get injured or injure anyone else while he was having fun in the stolen car.

My truck is broken, not sure what is wrong with it….it’s not the battery…she needs attention…finances, weather and time permitting.

My car is acting sick, got filters and belts for it….still need to get them installed….finances, weather and time permitting.

Still have a hole on the side of the house where the beginnings of a plumbing job was started….still a work in progress…will get to it too…finances, weather and time permitting.

Roof leaking….will get to it too…finances, weather and time permitting.

Leak in laundry room….will get to it too…finances, weather and time permitting.

and the list goes on and on….all with the same old tired refrain…will get to it too…finances, weather and time permitting.

Through all this I have been getting help from friends….as far as the labor goes….that in turn allows me to pay it forward in kind. I’ve informally adopted an elderly gent and a kidlet. I just don’t have the physical stamina to do more than I already do…when I do overextend myself I feel like my entire Mexican family got their pointy fence jumping boots on and kicked the shit out of me, took a 5 minute break and then kicked me some more….


So many annoyances….

I(idiot…no not me…but yeah, sometimes I can be) Why don’t you believe?
R(me) Why do you?
I-I was raised Catholic
R-That’s all you got?
I-yes, I was raised in the church and that’s what my parents taught me.
R-Sounds like indoctrination
I-No, it was how I was raised
R-again, Sounds like indoctrination
R-yeah, that’s what I thought….you are basically telling me that you only believe because you were told to, taught to, take your pick, me, I just formed my own thoughts and opinions, and they may be wrong, but at least I’m formulating my own thoughts and not espousing someone else’s views that are just passed on generationally.
R-no bible thumping please, I had my fill from one idiot (or two) to last me a lifetime.


I have simple criteria….that means 3 basic things have to be met before I consider a date…
1. Must have a job
2. Must have transportaion (preferably your own)
3. Must not live with mommy

I’m not looking for a boyfriend (I’m too old for that) I don’t need, like or want a needy, insecure and clingy asshat. Don’t call me, then call me back 15 minutes later and tell me you’ve missed me. Then whine that I don’t like you or ever say I miss you. Hello…you need to give me time to miss you…so go away…stay away…be gone for a week…or two…or even three….I can’t stand a needy person.

Never ending home repairs…sigh…enough said…

and insomnia….I hate insomnia…gives me too much time to think about this shit that annoys me…but I have to keep it in because if I tell the asshats and idiots how I really feel they get butt hurt…I just can’t find it in me to give a shit sometimes….I know…breathe…and type…bitch or blow….now time to go make me some coffee and get ready for work. Happy Monday to me.asshat

Where does the time go….

It’s been a long time since I came here to upload some nonsense….life has kept me busy….my insomnia hasn’t improved, probably never will, at least not without medical intervention or pharmacuetical intervention….I’d rather not go that route….anywho I am a little chilled right now, it is 38 degrees right now and my feet are cold…I’ve had my coffee…some toasted ameretto I picked up…it is subtly nutty…I LIKE!!!

After finally resolving my housing situation I’ve been working on home improvement projects, changing out doors, new locks, painting and hopefully today while I am at work my yard will get tended to. I’ve got more weeds and stickers and the whole yard needs to be redone….also on the list…floor restoration….at least that is my hope….to restore my hardwood floors, and tile some rooms. I am so tired of the carpet…there is only one spot…thanks to number 2, but otherwise no spots, but a very much visible path of heavy foot traffic. So tired of looking at it.

Almost time for me to start getting ready for work….my back is killing me…I feel officially old….I am now feeling the changes in temperature….that has eluded me for years, people would ask if I could feel the upcoming cold weather…well damn it, I can now…and I fucking hate it.

Good things part deux~

So I made it to my second appointment, went well, I guess it could have been worse. Things can always be worse. Got back home in time to empty out my refrigerator and wait for my NEW one. It’s a tad smaller and not side by side doors, but promises to be more efficient. I already miss it. Now getting things out of this one will suck without the boys around to help. But if I look at the positive side of that…well I won’t be able to get in there and get fat eating all the time. Oh and on another good note, I finally got the floor and wall scrubbed clean where the old fridge was, who knows how long it had been like that, it really wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be, but I know I hadn’t pulled out the fridge since I moved into the house in 2005.

I didn’t get to the yard…I just couldn’t face the face melting heat, plus I did too much running around and my back is in “I hate you” mode. I can’t catch a break with my new best friend, she is a fucking bitch and insists on having the upper hand and making me hurt. But I will take it in stride…for now. Remember Ruby, good things.


Epically stupid~

Yeah…that would be me today…I’m tired of feeling useless…so I decided to not be so useless. Of course now I need to medicate myself for my ambition.

Need a couple hundred of these fuckers for my back~

And what did I accomplish? Not much, just enough reason to crave an OD of something to put me in a place where I won’t be reminded of my stupidity.

And I broke a fucking nail too.

Fuck balls!

Something else I’m quitting ~ part 2

The book…I simply cannot put pen to paper or words to keyboard to continue writing. I lost whatever creativity was there…or maybe the interest is in remission and I just don’t know, I don’t know but I just don’t have anything pouring out. Yes, lately it’s been all about quitting. Blah.

Last night was horrific…and I almost gave in and popped a Norco. I felt like I needed to claw my skin off, I tossed, I turned, I was in misery and pain. I fucking hate this part of my life. Anyways…Ima gonna be under a rock for a while….

A light glaze instead of the usual~

So I baked a butter cake and would have normally made a cream cheese icing, but opted instead to drizzle a light maple flavored glaze…the cake is almost all gone…my boys are weird…they kept asking who’s birthday it was…I guess they forgot that I didn’t need to be celebrating a birthday to bake a cake…

I went and took my boy Josh a piece of cake and got a couple of rentals…so tomorrow morning I will watch the Blind Side…I almost got When in Rome, but one movie is more than enough…

Tomorrow I’ll have to go fuel up my truck, get her cleaned up and return movies….

I am totally exhausted and in pain…need drugs.


~I do not pick the wrong guys. They pick me.

Carrie: I do not pick the wrong guys. They pick me.
From Sex & the City….

Loved the dress~
Took the boys to the movies, they went to see “Take him to the Greek” and I watched SATC2…along with 3 other people….I had not stepped foot in a theatre since Wall-E…that was back in 2008. I’m glad the place was practically empty as I was having to move around several times as I tried getting comfortable…I sat through the whole movie and by the time we left my back was killing me…but the kids enjoyed the movie and they need to get out….it has been a busy day as earlier I did my radio show with my BFF Tracy….well that’s about it for me…I’ve been up long enough and my book awaits….

A blur of a weekend~

Something about making plans just never seems to work for me…I had planned on taking the boys out this weekend…I didn’t tell them beforehand and they didn’t seem bothered staying in. I was wanting to treat them to a movie and dinner or lunch…instead we stayed in. My back has been hurting to the point of it just being too exhausting to find the energy for anything else. Saturday I spent most of the day in bed…I got up and fixed breakfast, watched a bit of TV and then took a nap. I got up for a while and just wasn’t feeling alert…so I went back to bed. I got up again and fixed dinner, ate and then went back to bed. Too many sleepless nights finally came to a head and I needed the sleep…I’m still tired.

Sunday…early morning I woke Boy # 2 up and had him get ready to go with me to the grocery store…we did that, came home, watched a bit of TV, fiddled with a couple of things….fixed breakfast for lunch and cooked dinner and that just put me back to square one. I am beyond exhausted.

More like several somethings....

Something just doesn’t feel right. I’ve had exhaustion before…but this time I just feel something else is off….I dunno….

Finished reading a book and have another one started.

I’m off to bed. Happy Monday.

I wish I could have a happy Monday………wishes suck. Especially when you can’t make a wish come true.

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