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Shuttles, monorails, escalators, and elevators…modern marvels from engineering greats that made Vegas a lot easier to maneuver through….now it would’ve been great if the whole city had moving sidewalks….but anywho….all of the above made it easier and made it possible for me to see as much as I could. I’m still recovering from all the walking I did, I anticipated the pain….doesn’t make it any easier but mental preparation helps.

 

I’ve had friends and family asking for trip pics…I don’t want to be that annoying person that posts a gazillion pictures on Facebook, so I’m posting them on my blog, that way people can decide if they want to suffer through all those pics…that’s if I’m able to post them all here…well not all…that’s too many…

I got to see my cousin Juancho at the MGM, Roger and the girls (I think Roger’s girl wanted to kill me), my bff Michael and Maria and Jose who were there to celebrate 25 years of wedded bliss….also a nice variety of strippers and hoes….I did put my hands on some rock hard man candy…sorry ladies no pics of that….

 

 

So here goes….just random shots from the strip…

 

 

 

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If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable…you disconnect yourself from what you truly want…and all that is left is a compromise…in my life I’ve had too many moments of compromise…unbelievable to some as it may be, but true nonetheless.

Now I have a series of words….each of these words in my mind had a story to go with it.  Short stories for some, longer for others, as I was doing something with my hair I had to pause, normally I let these thoughts disappear fruitlessly into thin air. But I paused long enough to jot down some of my thoughts, in the moment to me these thoughts were pure brilliance. I do have the capacity from time to time to surprise myself with deep thoughts. Sometimes I share these thoughts, sometimes I don’t. In this instant what I am sharing is a salvaged glimpse of what I thought was pure genius. I don’t expect anyone else to see thoroughly through into each carefully selected word, but I assure you, I had a breakthrough.

Today is the beginning of a new path for me. It will be a slow process for me to manuever around some of my own barriers, but I have nothing but time…as I am fond of saying, “Life is the longest damn thing we can get ourselves into”, sure from time to time I may have uttered the familiar “Life’s too short”. But there is truth to both statements, it just depends on perspective. Feel free to think about that one.

So here goes….WORDS~

A game, a tired, tired game, a game of actions and reactions, a game played too damn long.

Reflection sans affection ~ one’s a longer story than the other….

Starvation and salvation ~ again one’s a longer story than the other….

I carefully mulled each and every word, I savored the sound of each word, each thought, each moment. At the end of my reflection I was quite pleased with myself, my hair did well through all this deep thinking.

It’s all well and good, and so am I.

 

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I Quit…

I quit my theology classes…I tried over and over to get into the lectures, and nothing….I got through the first one, but the second one was impossible for me to get through. I am not going to be hard on myself, maybe at another point in my life I may be more open to it, but now is not the time. I will explore other subjects.

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I’ve decided to make use of my time by embracing progressive education. Yale University offers many classes through their open ware program and there a couple of classes I have decided to explore.

Introduction to the Old Testament (Hebrew Bible) with Professor Christine Hayes

This course examines the Old Testament (Hebrew Bible) as an expression of the religious life and thought of ancient Israel, and a foundational document of Western civilization. A wide range of methodologies, including source criticism and the historical-critical school, tradition criticism, redaction criticism, and literary and canonical approaches are applied to the study and interpretation of the Bible. Special emphasis is placed on the Bible against the backdrop of its historical and cultural setting in the Ancient Near East. There are 24 sessions at 50 minutes per session. Whew…that’s a whole hell of a lot of learning…and not sure if I will mentally survive such an endeavor…but I’m game. If I find it doesn’t work for me I will then explore other classes.

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I tried sleeping, time and again, I slipped under the covers, put my pillow over my face, and nothing. Time and again I got up, I roamed around, checking doors, picking up books, finished reading one book, started 3 different books and finally gave up on those books, they didn’t capture my interest. I gave them each a shot of several chapters but I didn’t retain anything I read, a clear indication I didn’t need to read any further. So I have more books to add to my to go pile.

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Racing thoughts kept drifting in and out. Good thoughts, bad thoughts….all kinds of thoughts. Surprising thoughts.For now that’s all I’m going to say on that. Don’t want anyone trying to guess….guaranteed you’d get it wrong….just saying.

Have a funeral ahead of me. I don’t much care for those affairs….but family comes together and though I may not have words of comfort my presence may be comfort enough…I hope.

My eyelids feel heavy, my vision not so clear. My eyes are not rested.

I still need to make reservations, I’m hoping two rooms will be available. I am not a night sleeper and if I share a room we both will be uncomfortable. I’ll be beyond antsy, but I’m taking my mp3 player, my mini and a book.

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Dreaming of indulging in a book buying spree…..visiting cemeteries….picking a spot…though not for me…..watching movies….dancing in another life….moon/sun bathing and seeking immortality…..though not for me…

Traveling, the beach, the moon, the night, fire, vampires, music, the smell of old books, life…

I know I don’t have to be a house to be haunted…..normal isn’t one of my virtues….I try to live a good life. If you are a good friend and you are just, then you will not care how bad I have been, but will welcome me based on the virtues I have lived by….even though we have already established that normal isn’t one of my virtues…if you are unjust, then you should not want to know me…I will strive to live a noble life that will live on in the memories of my loved ones…I want to better embrace the goodness in people, I want to create more goodness in my life…I want to reinvent myself as a frolicking jolly do gooder….don’t laugh…I already did…I almost can’t picture me as a frolicker…..

Two years from now I don’t want to be more disappointed by the things that I didn’t do than by the ones that I did do….sleepless nights are a waste of time…and not much is worth it…I know this….yet I can’t sleep…I need to see more of the world….we all need to….we never know if we are gonna drop dead in the next ten seconds…why do I believe what I believe….who imposed it on me…..was it imposed or did I find it out for myself….ah….questions, many questions and not enough answers….thinking of my cousin who lost her hubby, so young, though I didn’t know him well I still feel for her and her family and their loss. RIP T.C.

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