Archive for May, 2017

Just could not keep from the racing thoughts…my mind is all over the place….somewhat bipolar I’d say….I gave up trying to sleep, I got up and sadly I missed the call from my number 3…all in all it was a good day….spent time with my number 2, my number 1 called early and my daughter from another mother surprised me with lunch….even better I didn’t have to think about what to pick as she took care of all that.

Back to the thoughts…nothing is resolved with everything that cropped up…tempted to take steps and begin a conversation geared towards a resolution, but truth be told I don’t have any idea of what conclusion would be befitting of what is not actually requiring an end….see? no cohesive thought….sigh….

I’m hungry.



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My pain levels have been on an upswing…for the last few weeks it has been spiking at 10+….I’ve once again increased the intake of narcotics…not a fan, especially after weaning myself from them….what to do…grin and bear it….I hesitate to go back to a doctor, I already know San Angelo does not have anyone qualified to deal with the laundry list of issues related to my pain….if I get a referral that will take me out of town and any which way I go I am looking at a 3+ hour drive….so…I suck it up…I know things will continue to deteriorate and I have a feeling that is what is happening…wah….right now I am wanting to find relief and I know what it will take…I just hate that that is how I will get it…and off I go to bury myself under my covers…


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