Maybe that hug was not so sweet and innocent~

I saw my floor looking a bit sad so I gave it a hug (with my back and ass)…somehow I managed to hug tighter than I should have and now I’m paying for it. I’ve been putting off a visit to my back doctor…Monday I will call my primary and have him set me up for xrays then a visit. Perhaps I can just email a copy of the film if he can’t find or see anything. I’m dreading this entire process, the cost associated with all this. The having to leave my house. I’m hoping to at least get a refillable prescription for some happy pills…and some pain pills. I can’t continue to delude myself…I’m off my rocker. And I want out.

I so wish those people talking about “The Rapture” were on to something. If all “THIS” was gone tomorrow I’d be totally okay with it. I already live in my own hell…tired of it. There are a few bright spots in my life, my kids, my family, my friends…but for the most part there is darkness. I don’t bring anything to the table. Blah, blah, blah….fuckity, fuck, fuck.

Waiting for my meds to kick in…if this doesn’t happen soon I’ll be spewing crap about boundaries….and dust bunnies.

8 thoughts on “Maybe that hug was not so sweet and innocent~

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  1. Oh my gosh! you fell on your back? I didn’t know 😦 So sorry your hurting. I hope your doctor doesn’t find anything serious and that you will be ok without anymore added pain to your already pain that you have If that makes any sence :/

    (((Soft Hugz)))

  2. Frannie, the pain wasn’t too bad at first, but it is getting worse. I think I’m going to eat some Oxycontin and wash it down with Vodka. And you make perfect sense.

    Thanks ♥

  3. girl you’d have to be Christian for him to come and get you. Only true Christians get to go. lol So, if it doesn’t happen just like in the 90’s i guess the date is wrong again. 😛

    Stop trying to hug the floor too. I know from experience it really isn’t all that lonely! Hope you get some relief. ❤

    Love ya my bfff!

  4. Tracy…I’m a slow learner…about the floor…

    …but now I’m just in that place where I’d like to go to sleep and not wake up.

    Prayer certainly doesn’t seem to be the answer…I’m guessing that once again I’m mucking it up.

    Love ya back!

  5. I’m sorry to hear your hugging the floor…not a good place for you to be! Feel better and I’ll keep you in my prayers whether you want me to or not. Love ya! xo

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