Going nucking futs~

This lack of sleep business is just for the dogs…I am so mentally dead, I keep  thinking eventually I’ll read myself to sleep…but it hasn’t happened…instead I find myself breezing through hundreds of pages, book after book, when I get tired of reading a book, I put it down and move on to a magazine, or will give my fingers and hands a break from holding a book and paging thru it. I get online and breeze thru the same familiar places….

Yesterday was not a good day, I popped pain pills every 2-3 hours, not smart…I know, but the pain was too caustic…I’m still hurting but today I can’t seem to swallow any pills, I tried, my throat shuts down and I can’t get it down….

Yes today is a day to contemplate a shortened shelf life. There is no way I want to be around for another 20 years in this condition, heck even the though of a few tomorrows like this makes me go into my dark place.

Whahhhhh

whine over…off to bed….again…wish me luck with that shit called sleep….

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  1. The Beatles said it best……..

    I’m so tired, I haven’t slept a wink
    I’m so tired, my mind is on the blink
    I wonder should I get up and fix myself a drink
    No,no,no.

    I’m so tired I don’t know what to do
    I’m so tired my mind is set on you
    I wonder should I call you but I know what you would do

    You’d say I’m putting you on
    But it’s no joke, it’s doing me harm
    You know I can’t sleep, I can’t stop my brain
    You know it’s three weeks, I’m going insane
    You know I’d give you everything I’ve got
    for a little peace of mind

    I’m so tired, I’m feeling so upset
    Although I’m so tired I’ll have another cigarette
    And curse Sir Walter Raleigh
    He was such a stupid get.

    You’d say I’m putting you on
    But it’s no joke, it’s doing me harm
    You know I can’t sleep, I can’t stop my brain
    You know it’s three weeks, I’m going insane
    You know I’d give you everything I’ve got
    for a little peace of mind
    I’d give you everything I’ve got for a little peace of mind
    I’d give you everything I’ve got for a little peace of mind
    (mumbling)

    (((((Hugs))))) oxoxox

  2. awww, sorry your not getting any sleep, thats gotta be exhausting, so to speak. 😦

    Have you tried those books on tape? Maybe those will put you to sleep, just listening to someone tell the story and you lay there and relax, or maybe those differant sounds they have to relax you? I would say sleeping pills, but obviously you already take probably many pills to add more to it, so thats out of the ?..

    Wish I knew what would help you.
    (((Hugz)))

  3. Frannie, I’m just waiting to crash and burn…I’ve had insomnia forever….right now I am just in too much pain to sleep. Thanks for your suggestions, I may try the audio books.

  4. You know Ruby, I fully understand what you’re going through. Because my disorders and diseases are all focused on the small of my back and pelvis, it is very painful laying down. I toss, turn, twist and wriggle around in bed EVERY night, trying to find a position that will allow me to get some sleep.

    Many nights, I lay down, sit up, lay down, sit up, and repeat that dozens of times during the night, looking at the clock every time, being distracted by everything around me. I lay there and listen to my husband snoring, counting Kodi’s breaths, as I can feel him breathing against my leg.

    Some nights, I’m lucky if I can get 2 or 3 hours of sleep cumulatively.

    I can’t read a book, because I get migraines regularly, and my medications can make me dizzy, blur my vision. So I stare into the darkness, hoping some relief will come, even if exhaustion has to claim me.

    I wish you Golden Slumbers my friend 🙂 oxoxox

  5. Robin…thanks…I know you are one of the few that gets how miserable this is….lately my back has just been hurting too much, so I’ve tried laying on my side…which is hard for me to get comfortable, then I swear I feel the screws on my hips…probably just my imagination or at least I hope nothing has come undone…I can just see a screw floating around…lol.

    I started another book, but needed a break from holding the book and my back was screaming for me to get off of it…lately the thoughts have not been good.

    Oh well…tomorrow will be better…I am hoping so anyway…((HUGS))

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