So I am in bed, tossing, turning, wishing desperately for sleep, it ain’t happening.
Took another pain pill…my third one I think, maybe forth, I only have 2 left.
We have the AC blasting, radio on, lights on, laptop on…neither of us can sleep.
I wish I was home, in my own bed, with my fans, my pillows, my covers…this is insanity, pain will do that to you…if it isn’t annoying pain, it’s homicidal/suicidal pain…those are my constant 3 pain levels.
I am in my jammies, on my laptop, TV is on, Boy # 1 is watching, he is awake from his nap, me I am just antsy, fidgety, everything but in bed sleeping.
Too many thoughts running around in my head…missing someone, wanting someone out of my head. Out of my heart.
Tomorrow is a big day for me….or at least I think it will be. I’m expecting x-rays and I am hoping that I will be deemed ready for Physical Therapy. I want my life back, the life where I was a productive member of society, I held a job, heck I held two jobs, I worked overtime, I went to work in early, stayed late then went to my other job, worked weekends….and took care of my kids…not my kids taking care of me.
I gave up 105 calories of my Hershey’s with Almonds…not cause I care if the chocolate glides over my hips and sticks on my ass…I just didn’t have the craving for it I thought I did. So I let Boy # 1 have it. See…sometimes I share.
I’ve got my alarm set for 6am…that is too early…because I will probably be up late…hopefully Boy # 1 gets enough sleep as he has to drive. We decided we will get up early and go eat breakfast before my appointment. I doubt if he will finish the leftovers he brought back…but then again he may surprise me. That boy can eat. I am going to miss him when he leaves….but maybe we will get to see him over the holidays.
Sitting across from boy # 1 and this is what I hear….
“I don’t know anything, I’m drunk….off of boudin…I got nothing”
….yep that’s what he said….he had nothing…
In a couple of days he is leaving me, so we are spending some time together, he got to drive Miss Daisy (AKA my old crippled ass) one last time to my doctor’s appointment.
So anywho we went to eat at Pappadeaux, had the Jumbo Stuffed Bacon Wrapped Shrimp on a bed of dirty rice with some Boudin sausage and some french bread. We split the meal and I still managed to feel stuffed and have left overs.
On our drive there I took these random photos…just because….
then here we are in the hotel room sitting across from each other….being weird….and random.