Scatterings of randomness

That’s about all I can muster, my last day off was Easter…by the look of things I won’t have a day off until next month….I am exhausted and hurting….I think the constant pain is just draining me. But I have things to do, places to go and people to see…getting boy # 2′s checking account [...]

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Whoever said hair doesn’t grow on nipples didn’t see “those” nipples….

Stupid is as stupid does, and I have been on a roll. I suffered a bit with hyperactivity a couple of days ago….couldn’t keep myself to any single task…consequently I hand washed my car, I worked on scraping paint off the coffee table, I baked lemon bars, I did laundry, I swept, I vacuumed (not that [...]

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They just keep on growing………

  Well the damn weeds will not pull themselves the fuck out. So I am on my knees, I’m stooped over and I’m killing my already killed back doing what nobody else seems to think they need to do. Yeah sure having a landscaper would be great, but I’m the damn landscaper, not that I’m scaping [...]

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Kicking the Cat~

It has been a while since I’ve truly felt alive, I mean I know I am alive. The constant pain is a good reminder….but living and existing are two different things. I exist. I exist in a world of my own, I’ve got more than four walls, none of them padded…yet. (Yeah that is next, [...]

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Catching you up ~

Yesterday my little tater, boy # 3 turned fourteen, he woke up to two zits, and a mother that had just fallen asleep. My insomnia has been keeping me up all night and I had done some reading, tossing and turning and finally gave in to the zzz’s at about 5:30~ish. He took a shower [...]

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No matter how you put it…it is a bitch~

How do I describe my pain? Most times it is chronic, sometimes it is intermittent, coming and going…it has been almost a sudden onset of deep pain the last for hours…but it feels like a constant it won’t stay in one place as it prefers to radiate to other areas. It’s a dull ache, a [...]

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Something else I’m quitting…

I am going to quit taking my painmeds…or at least I am going to try very hard to quit. This means that I will probably be bitchier, crankier than normal. I am also doing this cold turkey….but I have been experiencing side effects that I can no longer stomach…pun intended. Will the withdrawals suck ass? [...]

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Finally~

Mr. Sandman and I finally got together….woohoo. Though I may have been more drunkenly passed out as opposed to actually sleeping. I feel rested and that is all that matters. I’m still in bed, I wasn’t too kind to my back, so it is retaliating against me, I fed her some pain meds so all I [...]

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Not liking this shit~

How could I possibly feel like I am near death? From doing what? Nothing, not a god damn thing…pisses the fuck out of me…yes, I’m bitching, ranting, raving….ughhhh Okay, let’s be fair, went out to lunch…but fuck my ass…well…no don’t fuck my ass…how could that wear the shit out of me….it’s not like I went [...]

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Going nucking futs~

This lack of sleep business is just for the dogs…I am so mentally dead, I keep  thinking eventually I’ll read myself to sleep…but it hasn’t happened…instead I find myself breezing through hundreds of pages, book after book, when I get tired of reading a book, I put it down and move on to a magazine, [...]

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