As my reading progresses, I am struck with thoughts….these thoughts keep interrupting my reading, it is eerie reading something that is so familiar to me. Domestic violence is the theme of one book, and as I am reading it I am reminded of what I’ve lived, not only have I lived it but I worked with other victims of domestic abuse…I am struck by the similarity in most cases, the issues of jealousy and control, how that sometimes slowly progresses to physical abuse, sometimes there is no physical abuse, and even if there is, most victims will tell you that they can recover from the physical abuse much quicker than what is done to them psychologically. (I was never physically abused, just in case you were wondering). But the damage is more severe to a woman’s psyche when years of emotional and verbal abuse take their toll. As I read page after page I get a sense of deja vu, as I’ve heard the stories countless times…yet I keep reading…I feel a need to continue reading so that I may get a better understanding of victimology….I know I’m weird that way….
The other book I’m reading details mania, the highs and lows, and it is a very candid telling, it has made me question different periods in my life where I’ve wondered about my sanity. I think it is safe to say that I am sane…LOL…or if I was to self diagnose and use this authors own account as a basis for comparison, then yes, I’m okay…but I wonder….LOL….certainly I have experienced very high, highs in my own life as well as very low, lows…but never as severe as this author.
Color me Dark
I’ve got other books to read and I may give myself a break from this dark stuff….maybe I’ll read a bit of fluff and see if I can relate to fluff…right now the only fluff I find relatable is my fluffy hair and fluffy ass….but none of the books I have are about either ass or hair….sheesh….but I do have a western, and a book on aging…I don’t know that I am ready to tackle aging…I already feel a gazillion years old.
Emotional and verbal abuse can be very detrimental to a person… It took me over 10 years to trust men again after leaving my ex-husband..
I ruined a couple of relationships during those years.
Ms V, I know what you mean, I have done the same thing (as far as ruining relationships go)
Ruby,
I have done what you’re doing too. I have read a number of books about child abuse, about surviving, about depression and how to ‘overcome’ it. I saw a lot of myself in every book I’ve read and was shocked to see how ’standard’ so much of the feelings and abuse are. It’s almost as if abusers of all kinds take a seminar or workshop on how to be abusive…
A little fluff couldn’t hurt. Hugs ox
I’m still amazed at how standard the methods used by abusers are, it does make one wonder if they just teach it to each other or what…very creepy. Yes, I’ll throw in some fluff to break it down.